Upon being a shaky believer at best, a comfortable agnostic, and an atheist that despises the first two, I don't really value Christmas much other than a chance to see family and old friends. All the same, all the glitz and happiness that floats over the mire of anxiety, overspending, and exclusionary practices of the holiday, well, it makes me feel good in a fuzzy kinda way.
Problem being that I got nothing done. Jesus Christ, I have all my shopping ahead of me, and none of the fun. And on top of that, apparently I'm really really poor now, considering my income. So go ahead and blame me for not pulling myself up with my bootstraps.
Merry Christmas. What a fucking world.
A little gift to myself, I'm listening now, as I write, to Sorega Doushita by the Delta 72. I hope, when I break out and make it big, that I'm not as awesome as the Delta 72. The trick is to make the scene as an A-. The Delta 72 was an A+. And so few know them or miss them now. I saw them a few times and loved each show. They were A+ and therefore doomed.
Same thing with writing. Same thing with tabletop games. Too much polish makes for slip. A- is the level to shoot for. When I wrote about that Game of Thrones thing, did you know that the author wrote about very detailed scenes of sexual activity between a thirty-something man and a thirteen year old girl? The scenes are there. I'm not worried. It fits the world and it fits the world. But Jesus Christ.
"Jesus Christ, I have all my shopping ahead of me... it fits the world. But Jesus Christ."
ReplyDeleteBoy, for a skaky believer [slash] comfortable agnostic [slash] atheist hybrid, you sure talk to Jesus a lot...
No really, tell Him more about your shopping, it's cool... I mean, He might be kinda busy getting nails pounded through His flesh to pay for all the worlds' sins, but really, what was that about all the shopping you still have to do? To buy stuff for other people on His birthday? Getting anything for Him, by chance? No? Well, that's ok, it's not like He gave anything to you, I mean besides suffering horribly to open a pathway for your salvation.
Never heard of Delta 72, I'll have to check them out.
My annual poor man's Christmas present of a mix cd is just about ready to go, but I don't know when I'll be seeing anybody, so I might just mail it to you. Hopefully, there will be a couple songs on there that you'll enjoy that you otherwise wouldn't have come across.
If I don't talk to you again before then, have a great Christmas! Say hi to your mom for me. And be careful driving, looks like we've got some icky weather coming up. We're not going to be able to skip town before it hits, so I'm mentally preparing myself for some possibly treacherous driving this weekend.